Tuesday, August 09, 2005

A week & two days later...

I'm back. Well, I've been back, I just haven't blogged. Thanks to those of you who emailed me find out where I've been.

I've been home. I think I marinated my brain in too much tequila at Nationals or something, because I'm still draggin' ass.

Nationals was a BLAST! Loved it more than words can say, and being that it was only my 2nd time, the difference was HUGE. THIS year, I knew people. What fun it was to put faces with internet names, to hear their accents, their tones, watch their hands as they spoke. And I do believe they had the best classes I've ever heard.

One was by Stephanie Bond in which she mentions career planning. I plan on making a career plan and putting it in bold, honker-sized print and putting it on my bulletin board here so I'm forced to see it everyday:

1) Where do I want to be in one year?
2) In two years?
3) What houses do I want to target?
4) What do I really, REALLY want in an agent?

Those are the kind of things I've been wondering about.

And speaking of agents, I met with Deidre Knight, and if you're a regular of my blog, you know she and Fogelman are my top two agents on my list. She requested the first three chapters and synopses of two of my projects...but she requested that same thing from EVERYONE, which makes me question how much she REALLY wants to read them. Of course, I'm still sending them, but I hate having to deal with self-doubt.

And it puts me on a deadline. The first is awaiting a crapload of revisions. The second one has the first two chapters. Chapter three won't be hard, I just have to get it done and then re-read the entire thing to make sure it's flowing right and tight enough. Yanno how that goes, right?

Yanno how I keep saying that come August 15th, I'm writing fulltime (once all the kids are in school)? That's Monday. Less than a week away. And now that the time is upon me, I'm freaked out. I'm back to the "What if I suck?" "What if the words don't come?" "What if the revisions are just too big???" Ugh. I hate that!!!!

I know this is a short post considering I've been gone a long time, but it's all I can do right now. My hips went out yesterday, so I'm hugely drugged up to keep from it becoming this huge thing that requires an ambulance and ER injections. And since I'm drugged, my brain isn't running right and I feel like I'm rambling. I do enough of that sober, so I can only imagine what this will be like.

For those of you I finally met, it was a blast. For those of you I never ran into, we have to take extra care in Atlanta to find each other! (Tess, Randy, I'm looking at you!!!) I'll try to post again tomorrow.

*smoochas, my freaky darlings*

12 comments:

Karyn Lyndon said...

Glad you're back. You were missed.

Kelly said...

Glad you're back. I didn't get too excited about the requests because I was thinking the same thing - they asked pretty much everyone to send something in. But what the heck, it beats having them say 'ugh, no thanks'!

Nic said...

Missed you last night. Was sad you weren't there. You looked fabulous at Nationals btw. Enjoyed spending time with you and Chris and Sherri (sp?). She really is the nicest person.

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Brenda Bradshaw said...

Karyn: Thanks! I'm hoping to get to blog hopping this afternoon. I can't believe how I get so used to reading about everyone!

Kelly, yeah, it's a weird sensation, isn't it? I mean, yeah, I got the request, but so did everyone else there! I don't know. I mean, we have that entire "Don't look a gift horse in the mouth" thing going on, but at the same time, I feel like one of many. Now, if she requests a FULL, that's a different story (and will cause huge amounts of anxiety and uncontrollable panic!)

Hi there...err...anonymous person! Drop by more often!! Normally, my posts aren't so freakin' boring. LOL!

Brenda Bradshaw said...

Nic - I hated missing another meeting. That's two in a row now. Sucks major. I'll be there for sure next month though (I THINK! LOL!) I have KOD Retreat, so I'll just have to kind of play it by ear. It's $25 in gas just to go to the meetings and back, so I really don't know til the moment comes.

Nationals was GREAT! And it was fun hanging out more than just once a month, wasn't it? And you're right, Shari's great!

Dadio said...

Wow, I really would like to read a drugged up rambling by you.

Anyway, I'm glad you're back. I like the inspiration you bring to your blog. You fuel my writing.

Dadio

Brenda Bradshaw said...

Dadio!!! You're back! As soon as I'm done typing this up, I'm running to your blog to see if you've started posting again. How cool.

And how ...wow...just speechless for a moment... hold on, I'm not used to this sensation. To have someone say *I* inspire THEM to write? Whoa. Seriously. A humble, humble thank you. That's got to seriously be one of the biggest compliments I've ever, EVER received.

And that original post IS me drugged up and rambling! Ah crap - you can't tell the drugged up from the sober?? There's a scary thought.

Shannon McKelden said...

Hey, Brenda! It was great to meet you...briefly...outside the bathroom...in Reno. :-) Glad to see you're back at it!

Shannon

Brenda Bradshaw said...

LOL Shannon! That was so funny, ya'll whispering like that. Totally freaked me out!

Anonymous said...

Hi, Brenda!

Speaking of the "whisperers," I was the one who pointed you out to my friend Shannon. I had recognized you from reading your comments on her blogs when I was sitting next to you at Deidre's group pitch appointment. Remember me? I was the one that almost got her to spew Pepsi out her nose during my pitch. LOL! It was nice meeting you there and putting a face with a name!

Christina Arbini
http://www.livejournal.com/~singlecitychick/

Brenda Bradshaw said...

LOL Hi Christina! Absolutely I remember ya - both from the creepy whispering to the Deidre-almost-blew-Diet-Pepsi-out-her-nose-comments! What was it? Paris Hilton meets the Ghostbusters, I believe?? -wink-